Trying my best to be mindful when my mind has other plans
Tomorrow it will have been a week since my surgery.
It really is amazing how resilient the human body is. Two days after my surgery I still couldn't put my hair up myself. Four days after my surgery I jogged 5K. Yes, I'm still sore and putting on a jacket creates the sensation of knocking my funny bone but by and large I'm up and running (pun included for my husband!). I really just want to be allowed to do yoga and pilates again so I can be in as good a shape as possible going into chemo and my second trimester next month. Well, that's not true. Those aren't the only two things. I also want to have the strength of mind to go back to the office each day, I want to read everything there is to know about avoiding the side effects of chemo and being a good parent, I want to be completely fluent in Danish, I don't want to lose my hair and I want to fast forward the next 6 months.
My daily challenge is that my mind is racing toward the future. Why is this bad? Because, as I've learned from my yogic teachings, most negative thoughts involve the future. Mark Twain said, "I have known a great many troubles, but most of them never happened." Sounds about right. The hallmark of anxiety is catastrophizing—worrying about something that hasn't happened yet and might not happen at all. Basically, worrying is thinking about the future.
I have always been preoccupied with the future but now I don't have wine or my favorite workouts to act as my stimulus to focus on the here and now. I just have my breath. I take deep breaths and remind myself that being present makes me feel more connected to my friends and family, that being present helps me savor and be grateful for the loveliness right in front of me, that being present helps me become an observer of my thoughts without being swept away in them. Being present, helps me chill the f out. I'm working hard to keep that top of mind when my mind has other plans.
It really is amazing how resilient the human body is. Two days after my surgery I still couldn't put my hair up myself. Four days after my surgery I jogged 5K. Yes, I'm still sore and putting on a jacket creates the sensation of knocking my funny bone but by and large I'm up and running (pun included for my husband!). I really just want to be allowed to do yoga and pilates again so I can be in as good a shape as possible going into chemo and my second trimester next month. Well, that's not true. Those aren't the only two things. I also want to have the strength of mind to go back to the office each day, I want to read everything there is to know about avoiding the side effects of chemo and being a good parent, I want to be completely fluent in Danish, I don't want to lose my hair and I want to fast forward the next 6 months.
My daily challenge is that my mind is racing toward the future. Why is this bad? Because, as I've learned from my yogic teachings, most negative thoughts involve the future. Mark Twain said, "I have known a great many troubles, but most of them never happened." Sounds about right. The hallmark of anxiety is catastrophizing—worrying about something that hasn't happened yet and might not happen at all. Basically, worrying is thinking about the future.
I have always been preoccupied with the future but now I don't have wine or my favorite workouts to act as my stimulus to focus on the here and now. I just have my breath. I take deep breaths and remind myself that being present makes me feel more connected to my friends and family, that being present helps me savor and be grateful for the loveliness right in front of me, that being present helps me become an observer of my thoughts without being swept away in them. Being present, helps me chill the f out. I'm working hard to keep that top of mind when my mind has other plans.
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